You may have noticed that I don’t tend to post much about myself either on this blog or across social media. Most of what I do post is about yarn and crafts with the occasional mention of animals I meet or walks I go on. This has been a problem this year, as I’ve lost my motivation somewhat so haven’t had a great deal to post about!
During my break in August I had some time to think properly about where I am and where I want to be. The change of scenery and routine made me realise just how big the gap between those two things are, which is why I think I lost all my motivation. I went on lots of walks and tried to think things through logically. When I got back I spent the last two months trying and failing to get back on track. I ended up doing the absolute minimum to keep things going. Exhibiting at Southern Wool Show helped a little, but I was still finding it difficult to get into some sort of routine or do anything beyond what I had already committed to.
I won’t bore you with all the details but getting back to being the person I want to be rather than the person I am now is going to be a rather long journey. I actually began that journey as soon as I got back from my break by taking up running again after not having done any for about a decade. I realised I need to change things slowly, as I’ve tried to change everything all at once before and that has always failed miserably.
A couple of weeks ago I began knitting a simple garter stitch lap blanket. I have lots of bits of undyed yarn leftover from winding mini-skeins. They’re all generally just under 10g, but I don’t want them to go to waste. I’m holding five strands of yarn together which is eating the yarn a lot more quickly than I expected. I’m loving the result though and it seems to have helped me find my love for yarn again.
Yesterday I finally cast on a new project. I picked the Ceciliana shawl by Lisa Hannes which has been in my to-knit list for a very long time. I chose two of my own yarns in Undyed and Aubergine on the BFL Masham 4ply base. I’m actually excited to knit, for the first time in what feels like a very long time!
The Future of Bluebell Yarns
What can you expect to see from Bluebell Yarns over the coming months? Well, this year you probably won’t see too much change apart from the fact I’m going to be doing my best to be more active in the yarn community. I’ll be finishing the yarn clubs and Advent Calendars as planned. On 2nd November it’s Bluebell Yarns’ 6th birthday so I’ll be holding a special celebration.
Next year there are a few things I want to change and do, but I need to work out the specifics of them before I announce anything. I think they could be rather exciting, so watch this space!